Reading
Lovecraft’s works has deepened my appreciation for literary creativity,
especially in how it reveals the ways individuals process reality, emotions,
and experiences. As a language professor who occasionally teaches literature,
this journey is particularly meaningful. Engaging with Lovecraft's narratives
allows me to explore new dimensions of thought, not only in terms of content
but also in the form of writing literary critiques.
Reflective
journaling has become my quernstone, a vital part of this process to “grind”
creativity in smaller components. It gives me the space to toy with my
thoughts, examining how these complex ideas translate into language and how
they resonate with broader human experiences. By intertwining my roles as both
an educator and a literature enthusiast, this practice enriches my teaching,
enabling me to guide my students through similar journeys of critical thinking
and analysis in literature courses at the university level.
Engaging
with literature in this reflective manner does not just enhance my
understanding of the text—it also nurtures my ability to facilitate these
explorations in the classroom. The act of writing about literature in a
different, more personal way opens up new avenues for insight, making the
experience both fruitful and transformative for those I teach and for myself
A Psychiatrist's Confession
In
H.P. Lovecraft's Beyond the Wall of Sleep
The
actual conversation
Interlocutor:
"You mentioned that you created this machine during your college years.
What drove you to develop such a device? What were you hoping to achieve and
harness with it?"
Psychiatrist:
"Steadfast curiosity, more than anything else. I was fascinated by the
idea that our dreams might be more than just a random collection of images,
that they could be windows into another realm of existence. The machine was my
attempt to bridge the gap between our physical world and the dream world—to
access that hidden reality, the secrets of life beyond the constraints of our
human existence. I believed that by connecting with another person’s
consciousness, I could unlock secrets that had eluded us for centuries."
Interlocutor:
"And when Joe Slater arrived at the asylum, you saw an opportunity to test
your theory, right?"
Psychiatrist:
"Precisely. Slater was different from any patient I had encountered at the
asylum. His vivid descriptions of a life beyond this one, his insistence that
he was meant for something greater—it all aligned with my own theories. I saw
in him a chance to prove that our consciousness could exist outside of our
physical bodies. I wanted to find evidence that the bedrock of our own
existence lies beyond this material world. So, I made the decision to use the
machine on him, despite the risks and what the asylum director would say when
he realized what I was doing."
Interlocutor:
"What did you experience when you used the machine? Did it match your
expectations? Were you sorely disappointed with the results?"
Psychiatrist: "In
some ways, it exceeded them, so I must confess that I am not disappointed. The
moment the connection was made, I was no longer just an observer—I became a
part of Slater’s world. At that point, there was a high level of reciprocity betwixt
the two of us. I was then a bodiless being that didn’t even have to wear a loincloth,
floating through a vast, luminous plane where time and space had no meaning or
end in itself. It was an exhilarating experience unlike anything I had ever
imagined or ever experienced beyond anything that people have referred to as
netherworld. But it was also terrifying. I felt as though I had lost all sense
of myself, as though I was dissolving into that infinite realm and my
sojourning was not a speedy journey anymore."
Interlocutor:
"Did that experience change how you viewed reality? Did it alter your
perception of who you are?"
Psychiatrist:
"It did, profoundly so. After that experience, the mundane reality of our
world seemed almost trivial and loathly. It is like I had found a wondrous
hoard that needed to be forfeited to attain a higher perception of what human
beings are. I became consumed with the idea that there is so much more to
existence than we can perceive with our limited, human five senses. But this
knowledge came with a cost. I began to struggle with the boundaries between
dreams and reality. I started to feel I had stayed stuck in a mundane cocoon for
life making me feel in sore dismay. My dreams became more vivid, more intense,
as if a part of me was still connected to that other realm I had entered with
Slater. I started to question my own identity—was I still the same person, or
had I been fundamentally altered by the experience?”
Interlocutor:
"It sounds like you were deeply affected by the experiment. Did you ever
regret using the machine on Slater?"
Psychiatrist:
"Regret is a complicated thing; I wanted to dispel the darkness of chaos
that seemed to be around Slater’s vivid dreams. On one hand, I do regret
exposing Slater—and myself—to forces that we couldn’t fully understand. He was
a tortured soul, and perhaps I should have focused more on alleviating his
suffering than on satisfying my own curiosity. But on the other hand, how could
I pass up the chance to explore such profound mysteries? Moving beyond a
feeling of insusceptibility to remorse, Slater’s death freed him from his
physical prison, allowing him to return to that realm of light he so
desperately sought and craved for him. But I was left behind, burdened with the
knowledge that we are more than just our bodies—that our souls are capable of
existing beyond this physical plane. That understanding, while enlightening, is
also a heavy burden to carry. That new knowledge has been hovering around one
and many of my thoughts ever since."
Interlocutor:
"So, in the end, would you say that the experiment was worth it? Did it
achieve what you set out to discover?"
Psychiatrist:
"In some ways, yes. It confirmed that there is indeed a reality beyond our
own, a place where consciousness can exist without the constraints of the
physical body, where there was no need to cast out demons or even raise the
dead to life again because we are free. But it also taught me that some truths
are too profound for the human mind to fully comprehend. I feel like a fisher who
has ceased plying his net because there is no point in catching fish every day.
The experiment opened a door to a realm that I can never fully understand or
control because it is not a belt of prowess that can be used whenever you feel
like using it. And in opening this door, it left me with more questions than
answers, and a lingering sense of unease that torments me all the time because
I can’t gather my thoughts and find coherence in them anymore; it’s a pesky
sensation I can’t fully describe with words. Perhaps some mysteries are better
left unexplored and undefined. Don’t you agree with me? For me, the sphere of
ethical concerns has expanded beyond Slater’s death or my mental stability."
End of
the conversation
This reimagined conversation delves into the ethical dilemmas and psychological consequences faced by the psychiatrist in Lovecraft’s Beyond the Wall of Sleep. Through this expanded dialogue, my critique intends to explore the tensions between the pursuit of knowledge and the risks of transcending human limitations. In my opinion, Lovecraft’s story is presented as a cautionary tale, warning of the dangers of delving too deeply into the unknown and the irreversible impact such exploration can have on the human psyche.
References
Acuña,
J. (2024, August 7). Literature Reflective Journaling: "Beyond the Walls
of Dreams". Reflective Journaling - August 2024. San José, Costa
Rica.
Lovecraft, H. (1919,
October). Beyond the Wall of Sleep. (E. Baird, Ed.) Weird Tales, 31(3).
Retrieved from
https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Weird_Tales/Volume_31/Issue_3/Beyond_the_Wall_of_Sleep
Critique
reading comprehension exercise.
Instructions.
Here
are 10 reflective questions for readers based on my critique of H.P.
Lovecraft's Beyond the Wall of Sleep. After having read the story and my
critique, feel free to explore your own ideas by using these questions. Better yet,
if you can have this reflection with somebody else that has already read the
story.
Note: These
questions are only designed to provoke thoughtful reflection on the complex
themes and ethical considerations explored in my critique and somehow laid out
by H.P. Lovecraft in his short story.
a. How
does the psychiatrist's curiosity and desire to explore beyond human
limitations shape his actions in the story? Do you think his motivations were
justified?
b. In
what ways does the conversation between the psychiatrist and the interlocutor
highlight the ethical dilemmas involved in using the dream machine?
c. The
psychiatrist experiences both exhilaration and terror when he enters Joe
Slater's world. How does this duality reflect the broader themes of Lovecraft's
story?
d. How
does the psychiatrist's perception of reality change after his experiment? Do
you think his newfound understanding was worth the personal cost?
e. The
psychiatrist expresses regret but also a sense of inevitability about his
actions. Do you believe his regrets are genuine, or is he merely rationalizing
his decisions?
f. What
do you think the psychiatrist means when he says that some mysteries are better
left unexplored? Do you agree with this sentiment?
g. How
does the critique's use of an imaginative conversation help to explore the
deeper psychological and philosophical aspects of the story?
h. In
what ways does Lovecraft's story serve as a cautionary tale about the pursuit
of forbidden knowledge? How does the psychiatrist's experience illustrate this?
i. How
does the concept of consciousness existing beyond the physical body challenge
or reinforce your own beliefs about human existence?
j. Reflecting
on the psychiatrist's final thoughts, do you think his journey into the unknown
was ultimately a success or a failure? Why?
Critique of H.P. Lovecraft&... by Jonathan Acuña
Critique of H.P. Lovecraft&... by Jonathan Acuña
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